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[jinian]

Tonight's top story: Everything pisses me off.

Grrr. And I can't bloody rant about things because people will get their feelings hurt. It just looks like everyone I normally respect is treating me like I'm a clueless idiot. And I can't put in examples because I don't want people to think I'm mad at them in a non-temporary way. fuckin' hell. And then the people I don't normally think much about are being idiots themselves today, which doesn't malign me but does annoy me to no end. It sucks, I tell you.
Maybe it is a menstrual thing. Hell if I know. It feels like shit.
What I should do is stay off the net and away from people so I don't make anyone else unhappy, but right now that just feels like bottling everything up. Not that I'm not having to hold everything back right now. This sucks. I wish I were good at those shooting and killing games. I need to go to sleep soon but I really do not feel like it.

Comments

[marzipan-pig.livejournal.com]

I hope you feel better soon.

if there's just x amount of unhappiness b/w the two of us and mefeeling better saddled you with most of it, I could maybe take a little of it back,we could like mix it in with the good stuff and maybe it wouldn't be so bad?

hang in there, capybara girl.

[linenoise.livejournal.com]

If you feel like ranting at someone that promises not to get feelings hurt, I have AIM and ICQ available. UINs are available in my LJprofile. I have good ears and thick skin.

[jinian.livejournal.com]

Actually, I really hate IM. :) Thanks for the offer, though. I'm feeling all right this morning.

[linenoise.livejournal.com]

Ah. 'Saright then. Glad to hear you're feeling better.

[kalmn.livejournal.com]

i find both starcraft and warcraft to be helpful in these situations. they involve a good bit of city building, which is good, and then your little orcs/zerg/whatever go beat the crap out of your opponents. plus, they don't make me throw up like the first person games do.

[jinian.livejournal.com]

I don't know if I would have had the patience for city-building. I wanted to get straight to the whacking. I don't really know what game would have been good. It'd need to be not at all frustrating, which counts most of the interesting stuff out.

[linenoise.livejournal.com]

Random FPS shooter game + Cheat codes = much mayhem, no frustrations.

Just activate god mode, give yourself lots of nifty weapons, and then warp to a really hard level and go nuts. I used to do this often for stress relief.

[kalikanzara.livejournal.com]

Ditto. I was thinking cheat modes, too. By the time I find it gets boring some of the stress is let off, mostly.

[elynne.livejournal.com]

If it's any consolation, I felt similarly irked after having my own snafu with the big long link thing - and I just got a lot of comments from people saying "Damn, that link is too long, do something about it!" armwaving without actually telling me how to fix it. Of course, that was on top of a journal entry that I took personally (which was deleted while I was writing a reply to it), a newsgroup thread where I felt unfairly jumped on, and several emails... so yeah, I understand. :\ I'm glad to hear (read) that you are feeling better today.

[jinian.livejournal.com]

I didn't have any other things going on apart from feeling pissy in general. I would have greatly preferred people saying "oh, that big long link is the problem, could you fix it?" -- as it was, I know it wasn't intended as "you are an idiot", but I didn't need to be told how to write a link. I mean, I do it several times a day just on journal entries, you've all seen me do it...

The context that you'd had trouble with it helps me with that a bit, so thanks. :) We have friend-overlap, so some of the people giving me tutorials had probably just come from another one. I expect it came naturally at that point. I just get very testy about perceived questioning of my competence, and if I'm already in a bad mood it gets much less pleasant.

So I won't post unedited note-file again. Easy enough.

(Note that I am no longer annoyed with anyone about this; sorry if I am still not phrasing things well.)

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