jinian: (racism capy)
For some reason I've been thinking a lot lately about the first time I realized racism was alive and well. Obviously, as a white person in the USA, I've been benefiting from racism since t=0: as carefully as I was trained to telegraph that we were not poor white trash despite our class background making us vulnerable to such accusations, that "white" part was still pretty important. But the first time I really got it was pretty late.

I was in undergrad the first time, at a small women's college (I got sexism okay!), and I met someone I knew from online gaming when they happened to be traveling through my town. We hung out a little awkwardly and ate pizza and talked about our schools and the people we knew online. Then, as they were leaving, they asked me humbly, "Please don't tell anyone I'm Asian."

Now, I have always been bad with shocking social situations, and I just kind of did shock/buffer-overflow for a minute. And they said, people treat me differently when they know, I don't like it. I said okay.

Then... I treated them differently. And I would say it wasn't because of their race, but it was. It wasn't because I judged them for being Asian or thought that was bad or we didn't have things in common or anything like that. It was because they'd given me that experience of learning that something was really wrong, and I couldn't get my head around being able to talk normally with someone when I had not known that. White guilt crashed in on me for the first time, though it was mainly white confusion for kind of a long time after that.

So S, if you're out there somewhere: I'm sorry. I'm still working on it, and always will be.
jinian: (clow reads)
Angela Brazil's books are fun except where they are racist as fuck. For instance, in A Terrible Tomboy, we are introduced to a young English girl who loves music and composes pretty little songs, how nice. In the next chapter, we find out that what she composes are songs about enslaved people in the American South, complete with romanticized situations and dialect. No other kind of songs, but three or four of these. Why would you specialize in that? Why would people think it was cute? The whole thing is almost too weird to be offensive, but only almost. (There are plenty of racist moments that are just straight-up offensive as well; usually one per book, but don't let your guard down.)

Apart from that they are stories about girls, usually in schools, using all those school-story tropes that everyone else has subsequently appropriated, and highly enjoyable.

What I wanted to mention, though, was the new perspective that they're giving me on folk rhymes. Because of some combination of author choice and focus on children of a certain period, there are a fair number of jumprope chants and little songs and things appearing, so you can see a snapshot and infer the folk process. For instance, I did not know that Simon and Garfunkel's "April Come She Will" was a riff on a rhyme about a cuckoo -- you know, the nest parasite? Possibly I should have noticed this when they sang it in Moonrise Kingdom, but seeing it in text was necessary. I don't think S&G meant to be especially misogynist, but I have a sneaking doubt now. (Note that Brazil includes a final couplet I haven't seen on the web: 'And if the cuckoo stays till September, It's as much as the oldest man can remember.' So it wasn't necessarily S&G who extended it.)

[ETA: And now I have edited Wikipedia in a thoughtful and structured fashion to include this information, which probably no one but me actually cares about, because --> Actual Geek Girl.]

I was also disturbed by "No more Latin, no more Greek, no more cane to make me squeak" as a clear antecedent to "No more pencils, no more books, no more teachers' dirty looks." I guess a decline in corporal punishment is something I approve of! (Also on this topic: Ana Mardoll points out physical abuse in Farmer Boy.)
jinian: (racism capy)
It is definitely really weird to have people feel up your hair. Awkward, laughing, freaking out -- it could easily have shaded into bullying. Even if it's one person* whom you like, and even if you're weirdly positioned in the conversation as having the socially-better hair texture. (Is it actually true that some people's hair is so strong it can poke into their skin, or were they messing with me? I kept the terminology at "strong" rather than anything less positive, because wow was that fraught.) She says she wants her hair to be so soft, too. I pointed out that it mostly correlates with color and that stronger hair doesn't break all the time, but she was not dissuaded. I settled on, "I'm sorry, I can't help you," which at least made everyone laugh.

(It was also very strange to be touched at all; I want that a lot right now, actually, but perhaps not in a disturbing, charged context, okay?)

I keep thinking that more white Americans should experience this racial-minority thing, but I'm still creepily advantaged, there's no escaping it. Besides, I don't think the jingoists I grew up around would react to it by understanding the overall dynamic, interpreting it for their situation, or gaining that much empathy.

* Only one woman in the room at the time; the men had more sense or reserve for whatever reason than to try it. I am not ruling out the possibility that I may be mobbed by female labmates at some future time.
jinian: (attack zero)
Because (1) House republicans are ten years old: "Repealing the Job-Killing Health Care Law Act" is really your idea of an appropriate name for an official government action?

And (2) Rick Santorum is an evil, disgusting man. (Not a surprise at all, sadly, though his sheer brazenness is.)
jinian: (fuuko)
There's a wonderful article on V.S. Ramachandran in The Best American Science and Nature Writing 2010: "Brain Games" by John Colapinto. (The link will let you read it online if you have access to a digital New Yorker subscription, else the book has some other good stuff in it too.) I know I'm not the only Ramachandran fan around here, and his own books give hardly any idea of what a mad Renaissance type he is -- multiple Nature publications in fields tangential to his own! new species of ankylosaur recognized at a gem show, later named for him! what!

The article also conveys an amusing bit of fail by Richard Dawkins. Check this out: "Ramachandran is a latter-day Marco Polo, journeying the silk road of science to strange and exotic Cathays of the mind." Seriously, R.D.? Your subject, an ethnic Indian who lived in Bangkok as a teen, might think your metaphor is kind of ridiculous.

Colapinto, of course, also wrote As Nature Made Him, which there's been a good deal of questioning about around the trans community, but I think his journalism here seems pretty solid.

links

Apr. 20th, 2010 11:25 am
jinian: (dandy highwayman)
Waiting for the confocal sales reps to finish installing our new motorized stage! Can't really start anything until they're done. Hence, links:

New stuff:
Nawal El Saadawi is made of awesome. http://www.guardian.co.uk/lifeandstyle/2010/apr/15/nawal-el-saadawi-egyptian-feminist

Best friendsfriends find ever: http://bk1e.livejournal.com/259483.html
In which Peter Gabriel covers "Cape Cod Kwassa Kwassa," including the "Peter Gabriel too" lyric -- sort of. If you're not familiar with the song, you will not have the uncontrollable hideous laughter response that I did, but you can hear the original at the bottom of the post. The videos are fun but they do help me see why people don't like Vampire Weekend; it's a lot easier to despise their corn-fed privilege when you can see them. I just listen and am anthropologically interested. Also, bouncy melodies go a long way with me. (Who is the redheaded woman who's a tennis player and a goth enchantress, I wonder?)

Match thread to fabric really well. http://blog.craftzine.com/archive/2010/04/custom_cmyk_sewing_machine_mat.html

Stuff from last month:
New Karate Kid trailer: From coffeeandink. Okay, he is clearly (and textually) learning kung fu, not karate, and a lot of the trailer is "ooh, look, pretty China" -- but there are NO WHITE PEOPLE in this entire 2 minutes 30.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bxBQS_Qn5m8

From firecat. The Little Vulcan.
http://ayalesca.dreamwidth.org/1250.html

Badass woman secretary is king of a village in Ghana.
http://www.washingtonpost.com/wp-dyn/content/story/2010/03/09/ST2010030903477.html?sid=ST2010030903477

Cephalopods deceive predators with their ink. (But they look plenty smart!)
http://andrewducker.livejournal.com/1987051.html

Fantagraphics is bringing out wonderful manga!
http://www.fantagraphics.com/index.php?option=com_content&task=view&id=3956&Itemid=95
jinian: (algae)
Sickie girl is improving! Highest temperature measured today was 98.8 [edited for typo, oops], which I consider within my normal range. I am still exhausted by folding the laundry, but mental clarity is returning. Switched books to A Civil Campaign in case I would like the other one (Nowhere-land, A.W. Hill, just too baroque right now) with more brain than I currently have. I can recommend Brandon Sanderson for sickies. I did wish I'd been able to find that newest Sarah Dessen at the bookstore last time I was in; quarantine girl won't be able to buy it until she's too well to require it.

From fellow sickie [livejournal.com profile] marzipan_pig: http://thisisdiversity.com/articles/all/2835/an-intersex-perspective-on-caster-semenya/

From [livejournal.com profile] racebending: "See Baby Discriminate" in Newsweek -- sad but important stuff about how kids make their own categories based on appearance, and how to counteract them (i.e., saying "we are all equal" isn't enough)
jinian: (gun or pen?)
I haven't known what to say about all this. I am angry and miserable that my friends are being hurt, but that's not really the point. [livejournal.com profile] oyceter, in her high-octane awesomeness, has made a great post analyzing the problems at work that made it clear to me what I want to say.

I am not a part of most SF fandom. I've read the rasf* groups off and on, I certainly read piles of speculative fiction, and I used to really enjoy Making Light. However, I barely watch TV, I've never been to a con besides Wiscon, and I absolutely hate certain fannish social norms. I can't pretend my peripheral involvement has had much to do with privilege or prejudice. I am just some white chick who's never really been that interested in fandom. But at this point I need to make this clear:

The Racefail '09 is not okay with me.

As Oyce describes, the debate is being yanked aside by people who are at least partially immune to criticism. I don't know if it's there any more, but I remember TNH strongly implying that those she claimed as enemies had better not try to publish anything. People are squelched by such exercises of power. I don't understand how this is not obvious to some people. (I have to think that it's really not evident to them. Right? Because it is seriously fucked up.)

What to do? My customary "shut up and listen" strategy may need elaboration here. Pay attention to [livejournal.com profile] verb_noire and [livejournal.com profile] fight_derailing; donate when appropriate and possible. Continue to talk about race issues in person. Read more. Think more. Continue to support people doing work I value and continue not to support people and organizations doing the opposite. Post about stuff even when I know I'm not adequately eloquent or energetic.
jinian: (mokona dessert!)
After a hard day zoning out as I worked on my poster at the lab, I called [livejournal.com profile] marzipan_pig and [livejournal.com profile] hattifattener to see if they wanted to go the UW Taiwanese Student Association's Night Market with me. The fine signs saying things like FOOD and EAT around the campus for the last week had done their work, especially after [livejournal.com profile] oyceter said she was sorry she'd missed her local one. I hadn't actually reached Wim, so I was happy to see him show up while Mme. Marzipan and I were eating our first round of treats: pork shu mai for me, sesame balls and sweet grass jelly drink (!) for her. The signs were accurate; pretty much all you could buy was food, and that by way of tickets sold in the student union building, though there were a couple of games to play and free live music. I wound up eating: crispy chicken flavored with ginger and maybe cilantro, apple cider pop, and herb tea eggs, plus some of Wim's sarsparilla pop and seaweed-like noodles, then another sesame ball for the road. The lines were prohibitive by about 6:30, so we gave up partway through standing in one of them and expended all our tickets when we got to the front in the interests of not having to do that again.

I imagine proper night markets as having more vendors and a wider variety of things to buy, but as a little student festival this was pretty fun and no doubt helpful to my efforts at developing a racial identity (big hulking white chick). And tasty! I just wish I'd been able to try all the different foods.

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