when being repressed is a terrible idea

[jinian]

Most of the time, I appear pretty chill, even in the face of ongoing suspended doom and fear. This becomes a problem when I am blindsided by something that's not that major, get upset, and freak out completely out of proportion.

But I could have had this construct months ago and I thought it was happening but was held up for Reasons and *wail*

Our two awesome techs (the crappy one is GONE, yay) have been totally supportive and are Making It Happen, but I am --> embarrassed.