ten days meme (day 5)
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jinianDay Five: Six things you wish you’d never done.
Note: These are things that were upsetting or negative in themselves, but I don't mean I regret the life that came from what happened.
1. Failed to dump the creepy assigned advisor guy at Mt. Holyoke once I had another faculty member at all to ask to advise me instead. This was a big part in my decline and fall. I knew I had problems that weren't being addressed, but I was not about to open up to the man who had freaked me out by having an obvious erection in our initial meeting. Current me has no judgment on him for this, since there are a number of factors that could have affected his response and choices; a roomful of first-year women could fluster anybody. The impression was poor, though, and having someone to talk to could have gotten me a better outcome.
2. Sneaked out and messed around with someone else's boyfriend in junior high. Just not cool, jeez. (He was the only no-strings sure-thing I knew of, and I really wanted to experiment, but sheesh.) I felt bad enough immediately afterward that I left an anonymous note tipping her off that he'd cheated, but I don't know what happened as a result. I also regret the part where the encounter was not his idea but I tried to get him in trouble for it. None of this was my finest hour.
3. Sneaked out and messed around with my own boyfriend in high school (yay) without leaving a note in case my parents woke up. Which, after quite a few iterations, of course they eventually did, and I could have forestalled their worry better. Ironically, because my cover story was that I was driving around because I was upset about a fight with my female best friend, my parents and I then had an "are you a lesbian" conversation precipitated by my fucking a boy.
4. Missed the death of my last childhood cat. I didn't want to remember when it was; I kind of thought my mom wouldn't put her to sleep unless I was there to see her off. I was wrong.
5. Got pressured into sex. News flash to past self: that person is not a good friend to you. Maybe consider not doing anything she says, especially if she is manipulating you with guilt for one careless (flattering!) remark.
6. Put off talking to people who are now not in the world to talk to. I am not that sociable, and for a long time I felt like time had no meaning in relationships. Turns out it passes. So do friends.
Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.
Day Two: Nine things about yourself.
Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.
Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.
Day Six: Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever)
Day Seven: Four turn-offs.
Day Eight: Three turn-ons.
Day Nine: Two images that describe your life right now, and why.
Day Ten: One confession.
Note: These are things that were upsetting or negative in themselves, but I don't mean I regret the life that came from what happened.
1. Failed to dump the creepy assigned advisor guy at Mt. Holyoke once I had another faculty member at all to ask to advise me instead. This was a big part in my decline and fall. I knew I had problems that weren't being addressed, but I was not about to open up to the man who had freaked me out by having an obvious erection in our initial meeting. Current me has no judgment on him for this, since there are a number of factors that could have affected his response and choices; a roomful of first-year women could fluster anybody. The impression was poor, though, and having someone to talk to could have gotten me a better outcome.
2. Sneaked out and messed around with someone else's boyfriend in junior high. Just not cool, jeez. (He was the only no-strings sure-thing I knew of, and I really wanted to experiment, but sheesh.) I felt bad enough immediately afterward that I left an anonymous note tipping her off that he'd cheated, but I don't know what happened as a result. I also regret the part where the encounter was not his idea but I tried to get him in trouble for it. None of this was my finest hour.
3. Sneaked out and messed around with my own boyfriend in high school (yay) without leaving a note in case my parents woke up. Which, after quite a few iterations, of course they eventually did, and I could have forestalled their worry better. Ironically, because my cover story was that I was driving around because I was upset about a fight with my female best friend, my parents and I then had an "are you a lesbian" conversation precipitated by my fucking a boy.
4. Missed the death of my last childhood cat. I didn't want to remember when it was; I kind of thought my mom wouldn't put her to sleep unless I was there to see her off. I was wrong.
5. Got pressured into sex. News flash to past self: that person is not a good friend to you. Maybe consider not doing anything she says, especially if she is manipulating you with guilt for one careless (flattering!) remark.
6. Put off talking to people who are now not in the world to talk to. I am not that sociable, and for a long time I felt like time had no meaning in relationships. Turns out it passes. So do friends.
Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.
Day Two: Nine things about yourself.
Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.
Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.
Day Six: Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever)
Day Seven: Four turn-offs.
Day Eight: Three turn-ons.
Day Nine: Two images that describe your life right now, and why.
Day Ten: One confession.
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