flipping out over nothing

[jinian]

Headache for several days, depressed and anxious, panicking inside for no apparent reason -- hey, maybe I should get my 30mg nortriptyline prescription refilled instead of trying to go down to 25mg when it didn't work before! Why is it so hard to tinker with your own brain? (I really didn't think the 5mg would have mood effects as well as headache ones.)

Also, it probably doesn't help that I'm trying to customize a perl script for bioinformatics when my competence level is at "Fuck with it and see if it works. Doesn't work? No idea what to do next." and my relevant books are at home. Or that it's going to be a really long day with probable failure at the end of it. At least it's not my fault if the plants are still being bad tonight, but ugh.

I will go get some lunch and maybe a book. And breathe.

Comments

[katybeth]

Sympathies on frustrating brain chemistry and frustrating code.

Can lend my Perl 5 camel book if you'd like. I need to walk up that way to mail a package.

[kalmn.livejournal.com]

book and lunch will likely help. i hate it when my brain weasels do that.

[jinian.livejournal.com]

Oh, thanks, that's nice of you -- no need, though. I just had a long serendipitous lunch with beaq and now have no more time to mess with code until I get home. :)

[marzipan-pig.livejournal.com]

"flipping out over nothing

Headache for several days, depressed and anxious, panicking inside for no apparent reason "

Oh right there with you sister. Sometimes I think I'm just better at generating, you know, REASONS, than other people.

[lakmiseiru.livejournal.com]

*hugs* That's not flipping out over nothing, that's flipping over feeling shitty. Totally reasonable in my book.

Also, I am happy to sit next to you and help with the code if things are still silly. My coding experience is not great, but I can try ;^)

Brains are Dumb. Silly things!

[jinian.livejournal.com]

I have REASONS for plenty of emotions, they just don't apply to the mad muppet on a hamster wheel that was my anxiety right then. Luckily I guess?

[jinian.livejournal.com]

Thanks. You could totally do it, I'm sure, but I still want to kill it myself.

For now, though, other work. Running into beaq earlier and having lunch was divine intervention, but it put me a little behind on dealing with bacteria, and I still have to try for pictures too. I wish other people didn't stay late! Work is so much easier when I can relax more.

[oyceter]

*big hugs*

Also, it probably doesn't help that I'm trying to customize a perl script for bioinformatics when my competence level is at "Fuck with it and see if it works. Doesn't work? No idea what to do next." and my relevant books are at home.

OMG SO WITH YOU. Many sympathies! Duct-tape coding is cool when it works, but not so much fun when you are sitting there with random bits of tape stuck over yourself and no idea what to do with all of it.