sunday and monday happiness

Sunday:

1. I found the best paper~! (It is Open Access but may be hard to follow.) Not only is it precisely what I need for this fellowship application, it cites my most recent paper multiple times and calls my previous review paper inadequate in its new analyses, which is totally fair! Scientific dialogue over time! So exciting!
Though they should've written to me to ask if those genes were present in liverworts -- we totally looked and did not find them -- but maybe they are only satisfied with PROOF, which I would understand.

2. Edward Scissorhands soundtrack in Teahouse Kuan Yin. This was the first CD I ever bought; maybe I should watch the movie again at some point. My mom and I always loved the fairy-tale feeling of it, but I'm not sure what I'd think now.

3. Sea serpent and sailboat graffito along the mistaped blobby edge of the blue-white boundary in the teahouse bathroom.

Monday:

1. I posted a correct comment about women changing their names to men's for marriage. (I mean, I left out the part where sexist traditions creep me out, but there is only so far that's polite to go with someone you've never met.)

2. PI really liked my turquoise tights, and I have pretty much learned how to accept compliments from her. (Assume it could actually be a criticism in disguise, so half-apologize and say something I like about it. If she responds with another more extreme compliment, it was a compliment. Oh, Japanese/American weird PI.)

3. There were many pleasing things about my outfit today, actually.
( photos and going on about things )

4. Talked to PI about writing me a letter for the fellowship proposal. Went as submissive as I could, got a good result. Fascinatingly, she said of prospective-advisor, "but wasn't he very rude?" -- wow! She really wanted him to Treat Me Right when I pushed myself on him to visit. :)

5. Great clouds on the walk home.

good things on a hard day

1. SRS BZNS fellowship writing today: tea, hanten, office. Writing experiments on slips of paper and shuffling them to get alternative structures was a smart idea too. Screw you, House Republicans, I am getting this thing done on time even if I can't submit it because the NSF had to take their web site and go home.

2. The Yay genderform! is always so cheering to look at. Today's favorite: chapstick lesbian.

3. Coming out of my underground office to find sunshine and intense autumnal blue skies, a bookstore full of Japanese schoolgirls, and Ancillary Justice.

4. I felt terrible and depressed, so I did useful self-care things (like eating vegetables) and virtuous housecleaning chores (like laundry and dishes and taking out trash). And those things made me feel better. And then I ate cookies.

5. Hyperventilated until I almost died over Night Vale 32. Twice. And then thingswithwings was excessively brilliant about its queerness and nearly killed me again.