no news still sucks

[jinian]

Supposedly they were going to take her off the breather at 1pm today, not that I have much faith in that after being jerked around before. So who knows what happened. I will find out eventually.

The public and friends-only entries are a good representation of my state of being. Really I am mostly cheerful, which I am starting to think is my nature, but there is an undercurrent that makes me tense and stupid. Hello, people who are privy to the undercurrent and opted in.

Not being able to eat normally is not good either, and probably contributes to the dizziness and stupid feeling. I was cautious yesterday lunch but forgot today, and I feel awful. The bus ride home may be unpleasant. I don't think I've caught anything, just I've been upset for so long.

Comments

[baratron.livejournal.com]

Why do they keep postponing it? Pressure from the family? Or occasional upturns in her condition?

What caused the major organ failure in the first place? Prolonged drug abuse? Deliberate overdose? Accident? Or just misfortune?

Sorry to ask billions of questions that you may not want to answer. I don't know whether talking about it makes it easier or harder.

[jinian.livejournal.com]

Questions don't help, but I don't mind saying either. It's the family that's been scheduling the do-not-resuscitate business, and they were trying to do it as best they could for themselves, I expect. There have been no upturns. She had abused many drugs in the past, and had lapsed into alcoholism recently. There's no telling whether that's why her organs failed, but it's a good bet.

[baratron.livejournal.com]

That was me being interested rather than insensitive, by the way. I realise it could have come across either way :/ I'm not very good at sounding sympathetic.

[baratron.livejournal.com]

That was me being interested rather than insensitive, by the way. I realise it could have come across either way :/

More *hugs*, because you can't have too many (can you?).

[marzipan-pig.livejournal.com]

can you write yourself notes to remind yourself to eat? can we remind you? stress is hard without any fuel. I'm sorry it feels so bad, honey.

[eub.livejournal.com]

Oh, I wish you at least knew. Eat and sleep and hang bimodally in there, I guess.

[porcinea.livejournal.com]

I make a pretty mean grilled cheese sandwich. Shall I hot up the grill?

[jinian.livejournal.com]

I think even that is too exciting. Soup and dry toast are about my speed.

[jinian.livejournal.com]

(But thank you very much.)

[submarine-bells.livejournal.com]

*hugs* offered.

I sometimes find that in times when I can't eat for some reason, miso soup can be a goodness. Is nicely salty/savoury and sustaining, and much easier on the stomach than solid food.

I hope that things resolve soon.