jinian | I want a new head

What is worst about this is that I think to myself, "owww, this really hurts!" -- but it doesn't. It just feels fucked up. If it were pain, yeah, it'd really be hurting like crazy, but it's this weird unfocused twisty thing that doesn't really hurt. And why is it suddenly feeling like this? Did I just start parsing it as migraines and it was always like this, or did that last bike wipeout mess something up permanently? I didn't injure myself at all, and I had my helmet on, but it was the only time I got that neat prismatic aura.

On the other hand, some things do hurt. Anywhere you press on my head, it hurts. My cheekbones feel awful. Using the vibrator on my face feels really weird; there are too many complicated things inside there that rattle. The back of my head, where there is only a simple brain, loves it! At least, it numbed the hurty bits long enough for me to get to sleep last night. Short on sleep, again. Sheesh. And after I exhibited actual willpower and stopped playing FFT when I said I would, too.