lampworking, day 2

[jinian]

Well, I'm going. I am tense in anticipation of its being awful again, but I'm going. I keep having the idea that today I'm going to suddenly be really good, and coming up with all these complicated things to make. No. I'm not going to be really good. I'm probably still going to be awful at it. But someone has to be the worst in the class, right? And I badly need the practice.

Today it will be better, if only because I am prepared. Disappointment hits me hard and it caught me off guard yesterday. I'm still mad and feeling misled that the class is not what I want, but this is needed studio time for me. I'm going. I'm going to damned well learn to do this.

(I wrote this before reading the encouraging comments, but thank you. I'll carry them with me and pull them out when things get bad.)