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May. 25th, 2013 12:44 pm
Went to the Farmer's Market twice this morning! Once with [personal profile] oyceter et al. and once just now for more cash, salad mix, and buns from the Umami stand. (These are not the bao I was expecting, but those soft folding buns, so they're little sandwiches. Yum!)

My Real Life Science Fiction panel went very well despite my being a little out of it. Lots of fascinating topics from the panelists, and good audience questions. Must make up bibliography that I promised to distribute! I have thorough panel notes so just need to pull book mentions and find a few links.

This afternoon I think I'm heading to Trans Myths (since I'm scheduled opposite both the interview sessions for Fine comic, sheesh), then I'm on Women in Science, then I'm not sure but [personal profile] ursula is arriving about that time. After dinner: Tiptree auction and QUILTBAG manga!
jinian: (fft ninja)
I had a good conversation with the kids at Bio House yesterday, talking about nonstandard co-parenting arrangements and such. (D: "Group marriage!" M: "I'm not even talking about group marriage." Me: "I am!")

I hadn't known that they were thinking so hard about this, it was really nice. One guy was complaining that it's really hard to find people to be roommates with when your friends disappear into dyads to raise kids after a certain age, even if you personally value group living. I said being queer helps some with that. We're more often on the same page, and at least we've thought about whether we are or not, you know?

And they were all ten-plus years younger than me, and while I know they heard me they didn't - quite - get it. I am used to this, in the sad but relieved way that queer people older than me have always acted over my own comparative lack of trauma, because for these kids being gay wouldn't have been that hard, it is an option that they have heard of as more than a slur from the time they were little.

I thought about how to express my feeling on this, and the way I want to say it is that homosexuality is no longer enough to make you queer.* Queer is that you want something you're not supposed to, and you know that, so you make your own decisions about what you do want and how important it is to you. Homosexuals can get married now, you know, so we must want the same things as Everyone Else. Isn't that what we've been saying we want?

There are two problems with this. One is that I like queer people, dammit, and having fewer of us is bad. It's true that these straight kids were really thoughtful; I think it must have something to do with general tolerance and knowledge of available alternatives. So maybe I can get some of my community from sufficiently liberal straight kids. On the other hand, homosexuality is still scary and can get you in trouble, so I worry that younger gay kids will actually be more likely to fall in with the monogamous-nuclear-family railroading that's pushed on them.

The second problem is that I personally am being othered more now, because the umbrella of social acceptability is bigger and I still don't fit under it. I don't want to, but I do want some company out here in the sun. People are still not all the same. We shouldn't have to be.

One of the guys commented during our conversation, "We're all talking about our own things! I'm talking about roommates, you're talking about raising kids, you're talking about no kids..." Still, we basically agreed. We all wanted to think for ourselves and figure out what would work for us.

* Here and now in my liberal location, that is. I know this differs over space as well as time.
jinian: (bad wolf)
This morning I went to the Reptile Expo with Wim! Lots of great herps, including beautiful snakes with intriguing recessive genes. I loved that so many of them were sold with zygosity information, too. Aaaaand, ultimate cuteness again resides in my home: I got another baby axolotl. Hachiko! Number word beginning with H (Japanese 8 is hachi), to go with Hex, and the Shibuya Station Hachiko was a dog while axolotls are called "water dogs" sometimes. She has wild-type coloration and also GFP, green fluorescent protein; it's hard to see in her body without applying black or 405-nm light, but her pupils shine green instead of black. Pics soon. She's only about three inches long and has beautiful fluffy gills. Still too small to sex really, so her gender is merely grammatical.

Then we met up with rysmiel (and very briefly elynne), and got lunch at Hana then dessert at Dilettante. A wild m-pig appeared, and we all went to the lab real quick, then the Taiwanese Student Association's yearly Night Market. This year's available grass jelly was neither a hot drink nor a cold drink, but just the jelly itself in a cup. We also had tasty popcorn chicken, beautiful tea eggs, delicious watermelon juice, and some pork-mushroom rice in a leaf that I didn't try, but we were too full from before to do justice to the early short lines. Then there was sitting on the grass talking, which on my part involved being really tired, and I took people home.

Now: Hachi into her tank, cats on me, gin + Limonata, maybe Azumanga Daioh.
jinian: (Winry kicks ass)
Well, I can see that it'll take me a while to convince my body that I would like to sleep more than six hours a night. Having my digestion settle down will help with that too.

One of the nice things about being awake Too Fucking Early*, though, is that Hex is all cutely active. He also seems more energetic in the bigger tank, so yay me for finally getting that set up.

So what actually happened yesterday?

Lots, as it turns out )
jinian: (birdsquee)
Would anyone like a Year of the Snake card? From Japan until I run out, then I'm sure I can find more cute ones locally. :) There are also stickers!

I am currently v. disorganized, so I may not have your address even if I totally should. Put them in comments (all are screened) or email to jinian@.
jinian: (birdsquee)
My last grad retreat! I was pretty overpeopled for a lot of it, but I just chilled in my room as needed. Some of my favorite people skipped out at the last minute, but I managed to connect with other people and found that I really like some of the new kids. I think that's what's supposed to happen.

Friday night I hung out with people, ate potluck food, and had a good time in the hot tub playing Categories with bagged wine, before going off to hide.

Saturday I helped make breakfast (bacon, in an unreliable griddle with what may have been the wrong power supply), napped, then took a six-mile hike to the top of Wallace Falls, which was beautiful and misty as well as very wet. Only three of us went all the way to the top, so I felt pretty great about having made it, even though I had to get the super-hardy people to slow down a bit. Mostly it's that I was congested due to cold-aftermath; I was pretty happy with my fitness level. Later there was communal pizza-baking, and I made myself a non-tomato one and ate basically the entire thing, so that was awesome. We were going to play Ticket to Ride, but it somehow turned into The Resistance, a logic/intrigue game in which you can be a spy or a true resistance member -- being resistance is way more fun, or possibly it's less fun to play with scientists since we do logic for a living. Emotional manipulation worked a lot better on some people than others.

This morning I finally got to share some of the loaves of French bread I'd brought for the potluck, since there hadn't been room to put them out before but lots of people wanted minimal breakfast before checkout. And I made myself marginally useful by taking out some trash, too. Mostly I felt like I'd contributed enough to previous retreats to coast this time. We stopped at Sultan Bakery on the way home, where I got: a maple bar with bacon on top. It's kind of like the fried butter, I just needed to say I had purchased this absurd thing. I do expect to enjoy it, though.

jinian: (clow reads)
• What are you currently reading?

Invader! Jago is so cute. Whatever the atevi equivalent of a massive crush is, she definitely has it.

• What did you recently finish reading?

Foreigner, of course. Wow, those intro sections remain unhelpful. Having written atevi POV such that it was not obviously alien kind of undermines the perceptual and emotional differences the rest of the series hinges on. (Also mecheiti are spelled wrong sometimes even this early, argh. Spellcheck will learn words, people!)

Something which I have just sent off in a package as a hopefully-welcome surprise.

Also Yuletide including:

Lesbian Saffy

Crossing the streams of Nina Hoffman's early novels

A lost episode of Community
(also adorable and hot Troy/Abed/Annie smut fics, one of which is hilariously in character)

And "Friendship is Optimal" was much more interestingly creepy than the offhand rec had led me to expect.

• What do you think you’ll read next?

That would be Inheritor, which I guess I should get from the library. Either we don't have books 2-9 or I just can't find them; either is fairly likely.

I want something fluffier for tandem reading. Not sure what yet.
jinian: (bad wolf)
Fifteen hours of work yesterday. Not successful. Going in today for what is bound to be at least a whole day.

But, I got a postcard from baratron and a family Xmas card in the mail last night. Also M at the lab brought in a garland his wife made: little reindeer embroidered with sciencey best wishes.

thankful

Nov. 22nd, 2012 09:42 pm
jinian: (queen of cups)
Sunset tonight, clear and chill and soothing with a first-quarter moon.

Pinafored little girls stompling in the ground cover on campus.

The lovely gloves I got in Kyoto last weekend: dark brown leather with lime-green topstitching, lined with lime-green knit, matching my adorable new umbrella.

My two packages from people, especially as I now have my heating pad. (Not thankful for damned customary holiday cramps; maybe this is early enough I'll be okay for Xmas.)

Ebook companies that pay attention to my billing address rather than my IP address.

All you great people that I know.

Getting to live in Japan for three months, damn, how cool is that.

Chocolate cake for my roommate's birthday.

A map of words for pillbugs.

Science!

Beautiful things to make, admire, have, and give.
jinian: (so hip!)
Komarr is the exact right thing to read, right down to the "lovesick mania for volunteerism."

He would not, could not, work through it all in an hour, or a day, or even a year; each day must have the challenge and response appropriate to it. One damn thing after another, Vorkosigan had said. But not, thank heavens, all things simultaneously.


And last night I did something that was the exact right thing to do: Journey to the End of the Night Seattle. Wim told me about it in the afternoon, so I wasn't really prepared for a footrace, but I got him to bring me better shoes and ditched my backpack at the lab and we went. I was so very tired, but getting chased through the city was Not Remotely Like Work and I took a chance on it (assuming I could ditch at any time and go home).

This got pretty long, but it was great. )
jinian: (queen of cups)
Saturday afternoon: Went to a little mall full of Japanese stores. Ate donburi, bought adzuki cream buns, then went to get sewing stuff to repair some evil jeans.

Came home from that and crashed for a bit. Then there was godlike French toast. (Note that I got to eat [personal profile] rushthatspeaks' cooking multiple times, while you likely did not.)

After dark it was still unmanageably hot in the house, so we went out to a re-created fort to experience wind and coolness, which were very nice, and a view of Boston, which was pretty but didn't alleviate my geographic confusion.

Sunday: Breakfast of adzuki cream bun! Delicious. Sitting around sewing and reading can be assumed for all morning times.

Lunch at Mu Lan (Taiwanese) with very good crispy salted chicken and the most gorgeous basil eggplant. The fried basil with the chicken was done using sufficiently advanced technology. A birthday present was acquired and the kitchen is now much more comfortable.

When we were getting ready to go see Moonrise Kingdom, a cat carrier was needed for the outdoors cat to go to the hospital, which was worrisome; he remained poorly the last I heard. The movie was absolutely wonderful, though.

I'm sure I am not the first houseguest to be doing the mending, though it certainly doesn't seem very modern of me. I will fix my sweetie's jeans when I get home, too; it's only fair.

Also from today: Gotye getting the last word.

Monday: We were extras in a movie! There was ice cream (blackberry-lime and vanilla in my case), and new people to meet, and a bizarre MIT dorm, and much walking in the heat (so that I had to be a heroic drink-getter at the Whole Foods, which was strangely Trader-Joe's-like). We also saw an amazing hearse.



(It's a little hard to see, but those are purple velvet drapes with leopard-print bands, and there's a white coffin in there.)

Also [livejournal.com profile] gaudior got back, yay.

Tuesday: Grocery shopping, should have taken a nap but streamed some live Yaz and R.E.M. instead, then stayed up until 3am making bao and birthday cake. Also cramps, ugh.

And then Wednesday I had to come home. Such a good trip!

Final installment of reading list:
- Finder: Voice (among the best)
- Despatches from the Frontiers of the Female Mind (holy shit Raccoona Sheldon was hard core)
- Wigwam Bam (reading all of these eventually piecemeal)
- Drops of God v3-4 (Oishinbo-style wine-geeking meets Yakitate!! Japan for insane reactions though thank god less punny; m-pig, I trust your friend E reads this already?)
- Japan As Seen By 17 Creators (highlights: Aurelia Aurita, Fabrice Neaud, Etienne Davodeau, Kan Takahama, really just about all of them)
jinian: (clow reads)
Flying on Tuesday: skies like opals; two Great Lakes!; a rosy-tan dam half in shadow (as we raced away from the sun), making a lake-thallus spread in thick forest; fields with sashing between and fields without, some like old-style sequencing gels.

(My best guess on that last is that it's some crop sown in separate rows and harvested a row at a time. Cabbages or something?)

[personal profile] rushthatspeaks came to get me at the airport and take me home. Met [livejournal.com profile] gaudior and presented the awesome books I'd brought (Amy Unbounded ashcan series, which I'd found just before leaving, yay!, Ancient, Ancient, and Disappearing Foods). Watched some Community and now understand why the entire internet loves it so.

Wednesday: good conversation, still successfully eating with slightly less mild foods, reading books (Flower of Life even v4!, Three Science Fiction Novellas, Linnets and Valerians; all excellent). Walked down to Harvard, where some historical scientific instruments lie hidden in a science building -- great stuff, including a very 50s-looking cyclotron control panel that the signage implied was used until 2001 and several really fine orreries.

I'd seen the glass flowers before, but we really got to look at them and marvel in detail this time. And I found the name of a mystery flower I saw in Hawaii in 2009: Petrea volubilis! They also had an amazing mineral collection, with a special exhibit on meteorites.

Dinner was replanned at the last minute due to the wonders of wild-caught food; still delicious. ("The nematodes pose no health risk but rather an esthetic problem for the diner.")

Today: quiet so far, as hosts are busy with necessary endeavors creative and otherwise. Read (Little Butterfly), messed about online, washed dishes, made a cunning plan, soon will go out and wander a bit. Minimal engagement with work as it seems PI may have decided my paper can fuck off for the present; it's like she just NOTICED all the problems I've been telling her about for a year, sigh.
jinian: (queen of cups)
Readercon's apology was actually appropriate, and I am likely to attend in the future to support them.

As per my text from Wim last night, "Holy crap the skycrane actually worked".

(Unrelated but unmissable: Tron prom dress eee!)
jinian: (queen of cups)
I am being weird and navel-gazing lately and looking through my old journal posts. This is combined with checking on what other people of my acquaintance were doing at the same times, so don't anyone be too surprised if I suddenly start saying "you already liked that person in 2005" or something.

A few highlights:

Possibly my favorite ever Cricket Cricket game
(Many other hilarious ones in the same directory)

Why I am the biggest dork: Read the "awesome news" near the end of the post, then scroll down to the last comment

100 things about me, roughly 84 of which are still true

Coping with a broody cockatiel

Three letters of recommendation
(I did get the grant!)

The lemon pizzle joke, which I am still totally pleased with
jinian: (Wiscon braid)
Up early due to light sleeping, I went down to Heteronormativity in YA SF and ate my blueberry bread there. Good panel -- lots of YA dystopias mentioned and critiqued, the passivity of the titles right now (so many of which are past participles), Delirium mentioned as actually referring to homosexuality ("unnaturalism"), appearance policing even when there's no romantic choice possible, overt reproductive or sexual pressures.

[I got Delirium at the library today and was surprised at how good it is. Sure, the whole reason Ordinary Girl questions her dystopia is presented as being An Outsider Boy With Golden Eyes, but there is a lot more going on than that -- some good slow reveals of just how fucked up things are, decent worldbuilding, and lots of relationships among women and girls.]

Geek Girls and Self-Objectification panel: already complained about it. Check out http://doctorher.com/?p=1208 for an updated presentation by Courtney Stoker on the same subject as the panel's source material.

Lunch: more delicious farmer's market bounty, hanging with roommate and her friends.

Reproductive Justice: lots about the different things this can mean, not just the ability to decide when to be pregnant, but access for both parents, the ability not to fear your kids will be taken into foster care, and more interesting issues. Mostly not that SFnal, though we got into some works at the end. The Testament of Jessie Lamb won awards, but the premise is appalling (pregnancy kills you! your choices are to die before or after the baby is born; also you are comatose at the time!) and one of the awards is the Man Booker Prize, so enough about that forever. It did remind me of The Clockwork Rocket, which I recommended. And in When She Woke by Hilary Jordan the scarlet A is for abortion and covers your entire skin.

Shoujo Fairy Tales: Obviously Princess Tutu was the queen of this panel, and I tweeted Håll Om Mig Nu as a panel summary. (yes, I rewatched it when I did that, taking betsy somewhat aback when she came in to very loud music partway through; and yes, I also rewatched it right now; and yes, I still got chills both times.) A few notes on Japanese fairy tales: Natsume Yuujinchou, Xxxholic, Kamichu; Susan Napier, Thomas Lamar.

[Don't go looking for my Twitter account expecting content or anything; it's just for Twit-specific things.]

I debated chilling in the room at that point, since I was tired, but found myself unable to chill while Eleanor Arnason was reading something. The thing that killed me dead at the Aqueduct reading, though, was Liz Henry's poem about the moon landing. Kiini Ibura Salaam's stories were very good, too. And this is where the Wiscon Chronicles explaining Moonfail were explained aloud. I bought all three books.

Dinner with [personal profile] boxofdelights, who knows me too well, at Buraka. Wonderful as always. Quick stop at Ragstock for a shirt to go with my other silk clothing-swap skirt; I genderfloomped femme this year, which I had basically planned, if only through thinking men's clothes are too hot for dancing in.

When we came in, the line for the dessert salon was still going in, and it was halfway through its timeslot. Why people do that I will never understand. I went away for a little while, came back and got leftovers (seedy strawberry-rhubarb crumble and perfect blackberry panna cotta), and watched the speeches just fine. Really liked Andrea Hairston's about SF and expectations, and bucking them to fulfill SF's promises in her own way.

After that I danced all the things. Once again I fail at dancing with people, but I think I can sometimes tell when they want to now? If you grab my hands, even I will definitely clue in, though I am still crap at doing anything about it. (Sorry, S!) The "cops" -- probably hotel security -- came by to legitimize our rocking at about 2am, and we broke it up around 2:30.
jinian: (Wiscon braid)
Fantastical Girlhood panel! It was great! Victoria and I basically disagreed on everything -- she has seen only the gross pony episodes, while I remain appalled that Monster High has no outfits without high heels, including the orange jumpsuits in juvie -- but were able to talk fine about the traits of things we liked. Apparently there are a lot more Power Rangers shows than I was aware of and some of the Pink Rangers are stone cold awesome, which is good to know. What do I think of bronies: um, well, I have to split them into at least two groups; some are helpless before the power of the show, and I approve of them, while others are making skeevy-as-hell fanart of pony butts, and I wonder how much of that is them trying desperately to be macho somehow. Rebecca and I emitted ATLA/Korra-squee to the rafters and talked about why ensemble casts are great. Add transparent moderation and a good amount of audience stuff, and my first panel went wonderfully.

Other panels attended:
. Feminist Bottoms (generally good, varied, socially responsible; occasionally assumed that everyone in the room IDed the same way)
. Meta Elements of ATLA (lots of happy awesomeness; some trouble negotiating what we mean by Asian-American vs. Asian-inspired American and whether they'd look the same)

Dinner with [personal profile] pameladean and [personal profile] arkuat, plus [personal profile] oursin, [personal profile] boxofdelights, and someone whose online ID if any I know not. Turns out at least half of us would have preferred a smaller group, but it went fairly well, just polarized into a history/literature conversation and a science conversation. [personal profile] arkuat and I pooled our knowledge and his inspiration to reveal that in Rainbows End the scanning of the shredded library is a metaphor for shotgun-style genome sequencing, which thrilled me to no end. Wim later pointed out that there are some real-life projects where computers reconstruct shredded documents, too. Himal Chuli: delicious, with a great variety of vegetarian options.

I love the Tiptree Auction. Ellen Klages is hilarious, and people's creative works featuring Space Babe were especially amazing this year. Furthermore, I won Flora's Fury. It still ran too long despite revised bidding rules, but was definitely better than usual.

Talked to [personal profile] rushthatspeaks for a little bit. Then, as I have finally decided that I am not obliged to attend parties if I don't like parties, chilled for the rest of the night. I was sorry to miss the Haiku Earrings in particular, but crowded places are crowded. And loud.
jinian: (zoomy sakura)
Yay grad recruitment, that brings us 80s night at Dante's. My feet hurt, my knees and hips are like to hurt later (took aspirin already), and I am kinda limp, but my only actual complaint is that it was really 80 (+/- 15)s night.

I made a shirt and wore it! People liked it! People liked my dancing! My friends were there! It was awesome! Yay again!
jinian: (queen of cups)
Friday, after a hard but mostly fun day of prospective grad student interviews, I was happy to go to the U Bookstore to see Jo Walton interviewed by Nancy Pearl. I've known Jo online for ages but Nancy Pearl only from her action figure. The discussion was edifying and charming and all sorts of good things, and I went up afterward to say hi to Jo and introduce Wim, since there's also a Wim in Among Others. We agreed to have breakfast.

Breakfast is really why I want to post about this, since I think I'll remember the fun of going around with [community profile] papersky and Z but I'd already forgotten the name of the restaurant by the time we left. After some searching today, I find that it was Seatown Seabar and Rotisserie. Everything we ate was delicious, and they were very accomodating about food sensitivities. I had a fried egg sandwich on a sort of English-muffin bread with delicata squash and Beecher's cheddar; I have no idea what they did to make it so good, but I would eat one again right now. They did not ruin the fresh fruit, which shouldn't be possible anyway but so often is.

After some organizational steps, we then went to the Museum of Flight. We walked through the Concorde and a retired Air Force One, then saw many fine space things including a used Soyuz re-entry capsule and replicas of the Mars lander and lunar rover. Jo and I agreed that we would be going on the commercial lunar flight just as soon as we have whatever enormous amount of money it costs. There's a great deal to see at the Museum of Flight these days, including a section on early Boeing manufacturing and associated aviators; I was glad to see the coverall of a woman aviator and a rather attractive portrait of the first head engineer, who was a Chinese man. Also, I can highly recommend going through the WWII section with someone who knows a great deal about the Battle of Britain. I'm very slow to remember and relate historical information myself, so having help contextualizing made it all much more interesting. Next time maybe we can go to a science museum.

I bought a salad spinner to spin plates for my qPCR in the lab, found some lunch, and did lab work for a while (all by myself, with Adele and the Shins). Quite satisfactory.

Overall an excellent day despite a half-headache making me dreamier and more withdrawn than usual.

So far today it has snowed lightly with much melting, snowed like a very snowing thing, and snowed lightly again. I hope it's mostly picturesque rather than disastrous for everyone. I'm staying in, weighted and warmed by cats.
jinian: (bad wolf)
Whee argh. I got my reports all sent out last night, I have a presentation ready to go, room and projector are reserved. I got pastries at Pike Place (Le Panier), which is actually a lovely grounding thing to do in the morning. Still NERVOUS. Petting Capybara-san for strength.
jinian: (pigs ahoy)
Introduction

Happy late birthday, [personal profile] rushthatspeaks!

My (1978) copy of The Pollinators of Eden begins with a dedication:
To Lynn Gillaspy, as a warning


Perhaps we should all have been warned off )

All plants are the same )

Only they need to be sexier, obvsly )

'Evolution' )

Terminology )

Conclusion )

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