jinian: (lost sakura)
2016-05-10 11:55 pm

state update

Feeling down and having trouble concentrating the last few days. Still being sick doesn't help, of course. Allergist visit May 20!

I had a good time Sunday going to Civil War and Martsa with Beth and Sandry, and I made things at pottery class on Saturday.

Felt discouraged this morning and then pointed out to myself that my past few years have gone:

- Developed severe undiagnosed abdominal pain.
- Finished a Ph.D.
- Worked on a demoralizing project for a year.
- Moved across the country.
- Got dumped in a weird retconning way that gave me trust issues.
- Developed progressively worse abdominal pain.
- Had trouble doing the project I actually wanted to do because of illness.
- Finally got a diagnosis and had a difficult surgery.
- Lost my dad.
- Broke up with someone I liked because the relationship just didn't make sense any more.
- Lost my cat.
- Developed nonstop sinus problems.
- Got dumped in a particularly scalding way by the person I really wanted to be with.

(And, as usual for the litany of woe, I have probably forgotten some shit.)

It is a goddamn triumph that I get out of bed in the morning. So there.
jinian: (Winry kicks ass)
2016-04-25 09:49 pm

five things

1. My assistant, whom I have gotten hooked on Hidden Sweets in Harvard Square, went there last week and texted to inform me that the beloved grapefruit gummi candy of song and story has been discontinued, and that HS was already out. After partially recovering from my shock, I went to the internet and ordered a 3-lb bag of them, which has now arrived. Next step: confirm their correct identity by eating a precious single one. Then I can set up a safe-deposit box.

2. I felt really good today. I've been managing energetic or physical well-being or motivated lately, but today I felt like me, pretty much all day. It was wonderful. It's been way too long.

3. Now I just need something to do with this ridiculous upswing of libido. (Total Prince immersion maybe not helping here.)

4. Completed the writing style guide for the Brightshine Jubilee storybook finally! Now I have something to refer bitches to when they try to start with me about whether "archeologist" is misspelled. I'm really excited about this project, even though it's making me stressed about Flight Rising overall. C came up with it and plans to typeset the whole thing, and I wound up lead writer because I got stuck managing the "omg we can't possibly have a pirate theme pirates are evil" drama into "okay we're having seafaring adventures and here is how it ties to the site canon." And of course since I'm the only person involved with the project who can herd cats, that's where all my energy is going. Please can you do the thing you said would be done a week ago, M, thx. But! Style guide is done, all the pages have been claimed by artists and writers, all I should need to do now is a little light whip-cracking and then final edits.

5. Currently reading Hunger Makes Me a Modern Girl by Carrie Brownstein from Sleater-Kinney. I had trouble getting into it at first because her style is a little overdone, but by chapter 2 I was on board. She swings from childhood attention-getting antics to reminiscences of queer-liberal-musician callout culture in 90s Olympia, says she can't call herself a musician and then comes out with deeply considered ideas about the nature of performance. I never lived in Olympia or Redmond, but I'm from nearby enough that I have my own ideas about them, so reading about them is a mix of familiarity and prejudice-confirmation (i'm sorry but evergreen college) that has me grinning over the book constantly.
jinian: (garden yukito)
2016-04-20 11:31 pm

status

I got shoes! Amazing shoes. They're not the "Elle Woods Astronaut shoes" (akycha got those) but they are sorcery. They also ate almost my entire state tax refund. Totally worth it. (Relatedly, I have a blister on my toe that might be infected. Ow.) It's vanishingly unlikely that I'll win Fluevogs for ten years, but what if I did. What if I did.

Squeak would like you all to know that she is a CAT who PURRS and she is RIGHT HERE.

Tomorrow is my pottery studio's show opening! I don't plan to buy anything, but I do want to go show my support. And Friday is chiptune Rocky Horror, about which I am still ridiculously excited.

Hilariously, I felt like I was about ready to stop seeing my therapist for the time being after our next appointment... until she emailed me a couple days ago saying she'd have to reschedule because her father had died. WELP. Maybe I am not feeling so hot after all. Still overall hopeful, productive, and enjoying the springtime, just a higher screaming-inside proportion than I really prefer.

In completely different news, I've been re-reading SailorPtah's lovely His Dark Materials/Welcome to Night Vale novels, and I spent some time thinking about Dust. There's a bit where Cecil is carving wooden replicas of people's daemons, and Carlos thinks, of course it makes Cecil happy to increase the number of Rusakov particles in the world. So I was contemplating intention and art. Dust accrues to artifacts, because consciousness went into making them as they are. But what I usually do with pottery is more of a dialogue or meditation with the material. My goal is usually not to have a piece of a particular size and shape, but rather developing my skill or moving in a direction and seeing what happens.

I undoubtedly come out with an artifact, but it's a different feeling. Then I wondered what Buddhist potters feel is the point of their craft. I feel like my experience is qualitatively different from making specific pottery to order, but maybe the idea of Dust is... less granular than that distinction. :D
jinian: (c'est la vie)
2016-03-30 10:22 am

five things

1. Sinus CT was pleasant, easy, and painless... except for the part where I decided I should make sure they were inflamed enough to see the problem so I didn't take anything or use the neti pot the night before. Ow. I don't even know if this was necessary. I regret everything. (Appointment to discuss with the ENT is Friday morning.)

2. My pottery teacher was amused by my quadratic formula t-shirt, just like I thought he would be. One begins to wonder if he would bring his deft care, people skills, and nerdy tinkering sensibility to non-pottery tasks. In bed.

3. My home internet is complete shit right now. Most frustrating. However, I finally managed to download Rebuild 3 from Steam, and probably I shouldn't be allowed to play it after 11pm because I didn't get the amount of sleep I wanted last night. I'm not scared of zed, I just want to keep rebuilding Snoqualmie.

4. Std.daff has emerged! Based on my photos from last year, we're running about three weeks earlier in terms of spring bulbs. I'm told that if you average last year's winter and this year's winter, you get a normal winter. Today it's beautiful and sunny and I wore a flannel overshirt on my walk to work, no coat at all. (Possibly some people wouldn't do this in the low 50s? I WOULD.)

5. Currently I'm wrestling with last year's medical bills for my stupid reimbursement thing. I will get hundreds of dollars back, provided I can actually get the bloody hospital to give me a corrected receipt, and of course when I call in either it rings and rings or there's no one available and I should send email they never reply to. Gah.
jinian: (c'est la vie)
2016-03-18 10:56 pm

state update

In getting-over-my-ex news, I have:
  • Watched a bunch of Leverage by myself.

  • Made waffles (and done some other nontrivial cooking).

  • Gotten to where going to the grocery store merely makes me feel badgerish rather than panicky.

  • Finally thrown out the food that I had made to share with them when they decided to disappear instead.

  • [TMI] Made it all the way to orgasm without accidentally fantasizing about them and veering off into anti-erotic misery.[/TMI]


In general awesome doings, I have:
  • Gotten my bike into rideable shape.

  • Made an apple pie and won work's (very small) Pi Day contest with it.

  • Kept up decently on my job.

  • Successfully taken almost all of my absurd medication schedule on time.

  • Given excellent presents to people.

  • Polled for dragon game festival themes, including having to contact someone I didn't know to check that we weren't stepping on any toes.

  • Managed a fuckton of drama about dragon game festival themes, including whipping up a storyline that incorporated multiple suggestions.

  • Appeared to have an actual immune system -- still not all the way better but quickly recovered back to generally-crappy instead of getting a bad cold.

  • Designed and drawn lineart for an elaborate (representational-plus-celtic-knot) mythical snake design on a bowl, to be further painted in underglaze.
jinian: (zoomy sakura)
2016-02-28 08:44 pm

eventful saturday

I woke up in a good mood on Friday (sushi aftereffects?) and then had therapy. Therapist is onto me, as I have complained to Twitter already -- she refuses to hear only about the things that are going well now and directs me back to how the one terrible thing is getting its miasma everywhere. So that was hard but probably a good idea.

Saturday I had pottery as usual, and while the kiln is getting a lot slower since it's the end of the quarter I did get my Hallucigenia bowl back! It's ridiculous and great. I glazed the trilobite-stenciled bowl and another one, so hopefully those will be done by next week, and threw a couple more bowls that I was very happy with. One quite big, with lovely thin walls that really wanted to buckle downward, and my teacher was finally not being monopolized by Miss Working-On-Commission for the entire period and showed me how to save it and a less accident-prone way to do shaping. Always nice when I get instruction from my instructor!

Then [personal profile] genarti picked me up for our small hiking trip. It wasn't warm at all, but dry and clear was good enough for us. We drove out to Rocky Woods Reservation, which turns out to be adorable and very well maintained, with nice flexible trail options that don't doom you to an hours-long loop if you don't want to commit. There was an orienteering event that we both agreed we probably would've wanted to join in if we hadn't come at the end, but instead we had quite good sandwiches and a giant pickle from an aggressively quaint deli in the nearby small town. (How quaint were they? So quaint they had three kinds of store-brand soda bottled for them, bearing labels printed with an image of their storefront, complete with printed sign pointing to it in case you forgot who and how cute they were.)

Hiking with Beth is great. We climbed rocky hills! We saw a beautiful vista! We got distracted by trees and rocks! And also a weird nut (diagnosis after rock-based dissection efforts: one of these bare trees is a young walnut). And part of the trail being paved with compressed shredded roof shingles.

Then we joined a bunch of people downtown to watch Mermaid, which was hilarious if disturbing in parts. The cops! The shoes! The ceiling fan! The slingshot! The cranky assassin auntie! The badass magical grandma! (We could all have done without the teppanyaki scene.) We got food at a good Vietnamese place, which I'm about to have leftover clay pot rice from, and went by a bakery on our way home too.

Then I came home to find that pretty much everything we needed for our Flight Rising event was done to my satisfaction, and got a lot of very nice sleeping done. This morning (now that the push has started and we have some dragon data to play with) I made spreadsheet wizardries happen, took another nap, and have had time to just relax. I'm reading the weirder novels of Andrea Host, and can definitely recommend The Pyramids of London for wacky steampunk vampires and gods. Very eventful days are fun, but my health is still not great, and lying down a lot today has also been excellent. I also watched a bunch of Leverage, and I'm working on a music mix for a friend.
jinian: (black and white)
2016-01-31 11:58 pm

potshots

Been making things! A few people have asked about how pottery is going, and the answer is, extremely well. I'm very happy with my instructor and the fact that he's now teaching on Saturday mornings instead of when I ought to be at work. Last term I lost a few pieces in new and interesting ways, but I did come out with one pie plate of the three I threw, plus a few other things I liked pretty well.

This term I'm focusing on wall thickness, which I thought was my weakest point during the last class, and experimenting with some new decorating techniques. It's entirely possible that I'll demand my birthday-dinner guests take bowls away with them, since I am making many ramen bowls! So far I'm happy with their improved lightness, and I'm making them in some shapes that I wouldn't otherwise have explored. I tried a stenciling technique yesterday that worked extremely well, so that's exciting too.

Some photos of the many glaze interactions )
jinian: (black and white)
2015-12-15 08:59 pm

want a holiday card?

I wish to celebrate this fucking year's coming to a close, and I wish to Make Stuff. Comments are screened, drop your address if you'd like a card. :)
jinian: (black and white)
2015-11-12 09:36 pm

day 1 new pottery class

I'm taking a short five-week pottery course. YAY! I have missed doing pottery so much. It's about an hour away from home and work on transit, and unfortunately it's a morning class so I miss half a work day. However, it's reasonably priced, entirely unlike the pottery studios closer to home, and it turns out I like it a lot.

The teacher is not the one I expected based on the course listing, but I like him. So far he's very flexible and has completely different ideas about wedging the clay than anyone else I've encountered. (He thinks of it in terms of pre-organizing the particles into a swirl rather than trying to remove air bubbles.) He's kind of a smartass hippie, which I'm generally in favor of. There are only five people in the class, and he adjusted extremely well to our different skill levels. He has a very loose style of teaching, not at all the step-by-step best-practices sort of instruction I've had before, but his explanations are good even if he seems to be struggling to verbalize them occasionally.

As for me, I sat right down and threw like a boss. It's like my mind and body have made more connections rather than losing them over time -- I felt like I was getting things I had never gotten before. I also forgot a couple of details, but overall, wow. I was sure that when my first small bowl went well I'd completely screw up the next one, but I threw two larger bowls and a curvy little pitcher without any significant problems.

So, you know, probably next week I'll screw everything up completely. You have to maintain the appropriate mind set with pottery. :)

A student from another class told us about a pottery phone app. Technology! (I won't need to post pics here and have my pieces disappear, hurrah. Being cagy about the class location anyway, I hated losing those.)
jinian: (garden yukito)
2015-06-07 11:34 pm

but actually this weekend was pretty great

Saturday: lazy mostly, some vacuuming; beat the first world on bit.trip Runner for the first time; finished [personal profile] rushthatspeaks' quilt, gave it to them, and went to a good 80s new wave dance night together.

quilt pic )

Sunday: took [personal profile] gaudior to birthday lunch, shopped for teapots, had a lovely walk, and bought a teapot on the internet; cleaned up my room and assessed finishing the ladybug quilt project from yonks ago; wrote to someone on OKCupid about board games; more chores; sleepiness.

(The Princess Tutu quilt project is more intriguing, but the ladybugs are so great and have been sitting around so long! The top just needs to be made queen-bed-shaped without ruining the existing design.)
jinian: (lost sakura)
2015-02-28 09:53 pm

good things

1. Accomplished much sewing today with happy sunbeamish cats.

2. Last night my new textbook for my new job came: feeling like I am doing what I should, having good enough health to do it with, and enjoying the material. And I aced the pretest. :)

3. Another shipment came too, including some heavier lotion that I like the smell of and some probiotics to try to get my tummy all the way in gear.

4. Some fun nerdiness with spreadsheets occurred.

5. Good meeting yesterday with my boss and fellow postdoc where I had an analysis they wanted before they asked for it!
jinian: (black and white)
2014-09-20 10:26 pm

good day

1. All my transit timing today went unusually well, including a side trip to refill my card.

2. I ran into people who helpfully registered me to vote! I needed that!

3. My dresser is not only assembled but a really beautiful deep teal color, due to my awesomeness. (Researched a good colored wood stain online, found and retrieved it locally, applied it, sprayed two topcoats, finished assembly.)

4. Also, I put up giant stickers of magnolia blossoms.

Now I just need to find a smallish mirror and saw off the dresser legs to a better height. Well, and unpack all the rest of the things. Progress is so satisfying!
jinian: (baby dalek)
2014-09-18 09:56 am

things what are nice

I was foolish and mopey last night, but many things are nice.

- Almost done quilting the Wim quilt. (I should've thought of working on it last night, probably would've felt better.)

- Unpacked many clothes, though I need a good dresser to organize things before doing much more.

- The weather is a thing that is nice now! Walking is pleasant and it takes 5-10 minutes less time to get anywhere than my summertime estimates. Beautiful skies too.

- The fish Lord Nelson built a bubble nest just because. I guess he is feeling sassier!

- I've been sleeping pretty well even with importunate cats.
jinian: (c'est la vie)
2014-07-09 09:09 pm

quick update

I am alive, just withdrawn! Feeling crummy much of the time due to digestive badness and icky soupy weather. However, recent highlights include:

- Weekend in Manhattan (racing friend, giant rocks in Central Park, HTTYD2 3D, "Seattle-style" teriyaki, the Jane Hotel, the High Line, boat tour: all A+ would trip again; bus AC going out for part of the ride: D-)

- Trip to UConn greenhouse to collect plant material for research (for which I awesomely sourced liquid nitrogen from a welding supply place when my university hookup was somehow completely out, and from which I brought home a new living plant friend as well as all the tissue samples I needed)

- Fine fireworks show and stunning lightning-and-rain storm as ably described by [personal profile] sovay

- Finished a quilt top, found and assembled a suitably interesting backing

- Reading All The Georgette Heyer with occasional dashes of Tamora Pierce
jinian: Unikitty from the Lego Movie in business attire (unikitty)
2014-06-24 12:17 am

good things

I've been semi-keeping track.

Friday:
1. Got a 30-gallon long tank for the axies, for whenever they arrive. USPS allows shipping of amphibians! Wim kinda wants to keep them for longer, but maybe he should get his own. :)

2. Successful human-management skills! Confusing situation with a lost package, got referred to the mailroom guy, he was like "I dunno" -- and I pulled out "what do you think I should do?" (because I didn't in fact know, but also because he had knowledge and wasn't giving it to me). Fifteen minutes later, problem solved. By him.

Sunday:
1. Lovely outing to thrift store, where I got surprise stompy boots!

2. And surprise backing fabric for the Wim quilt. Wasn't thinking that a red would be in it at all, but it works!

Monday:
1. Nice morning at home and then acupuncture.

2. Pretty girls are outside. One had spots like a dalmatian, which I suppose is considered a disorder of some kind, but it looked beautiful, like stars and galaxies all over her arms.

3. Biodiversity Heritage Library... so pretty...

4. I have a sweater now! First day I've been totally comfortable at work.

5. Super fun time writing an impromptu choose-your-own-adventure story for my racing game people.
jinian: (c'est la vie)
2014-06-15 01:02 am

good things

Friday goodness:

1. Managed to sleep the whole night! This is still far too much of a challenge.

2. Saw a seminar by someone I knew from my previous department and had a fun conversation with her afterward.

3. Got a giant care package that I mostly packed for myself while moving! Wim was mighty and sent it even though it wound up being dead expensive.

Saturday goodness:

1. Did laundry like a boss.

2. Ran errands and got a little African violet friend!

3. Made collages for a mix CD cover. Me + rubber cement = OTP. It has been too long.

4. How To Train Your Dragon remains really great.
jinian: (birdsquee)
2014-06-10 11:57 pm

happiness

Mon-daily happiness

1. Good interactions with bosses past and present.

2. Had enough energy to cook dinner and lunch for tomorrow!

3. I even sewed a bit in the evening. So nice.

4. Apartment to myself!

Tues-daily happiness

1. Organizing with persnickety details and Linnaean binomials. I even got to sort little bits of dried leaf out of sand. (This is tremendously satisfying, don't judge me.)

2. Korean market is fascinating and full of awesome things.

3. Date time with [personal profile] rushthatspeaks!
jinian: (c'est la vie)
2014-04-27 12:31 am

good things

1. Smells in the world. Mexican orange, the odd remaining apple blossom, grilled meat from Agua Verde, lilacs, rosemary.

2. Lazy Saturday with sewing.

3. Mercedes Lackey has justified her existence: the Bards have version control.

4. Talking about Miyazaki movies!
jinian: (c'est la vie)
2014-04-26 12:23 am

happy two days

Thursday:

1. Single-serving cups of tiny kosher dill pickles in the grad lounge! Never seen these before. Charming and tasty.

2. Katsu curry don and seaweed salad.

3. Wim likes his quilt so far.

4. Blood Simple and Rainbow Nerds.

Friday:

1. Morning with sweetie.

2. Moyashimon socks.

3. Sunny beautiful day.

4. Spent time with Elynne for the first time in ages! Got lots of sewing and talking done, ate and drank tasty things.
2014-04-21 01:15 am

good weekend

Saturday:

1. Still highly amused by Wim's link to HIGH END CUSTOMIZABLE SAUNA EXPERIENCE.

2. Managed to mow some lawn before the rain got heavy.

3. Lovely quiet day of making stuff and thinky writing.

4. Looked at a whole lot of extremely fine pictures of Kat Dennings. Yum.

Sunday:

1. Caught up on Welcome to Night Vale. Blown away by the latest Weather: Eliza Rickman's "Pretty Little Head"

2. Haphazard hair-pinning for maximum cuteness was a runaway success.

3. Ukulele-playing girl in the back of the bus was a pleasant background, then she seemed really happy when some guy told her he was enjoying it, so I told her too before I got off and she was flaily-happy. Adorable!

4. Stayed up way too late watching The Dark Crystal in chat with racing friend. Oops. Such fun, though.